One
day, a couple of weeks before Christmas in 2003, I was contemplating New
Year’s resolutions. I hadn’t made any in several years, because I
resolved never to make another one. Who keeps those anyway? I certainly
never did.
But it
bothered me for quite some time that our family didn’t attend church on
a regular basis, only sporadically on holidays or special occasions. So, I
intended to break my resolution about making resolutions. And it’s the
smartest thing I’ve ever done.
When I
decided that we should go to church, I wanted to do some research first.
So I did a search for "places of worship," and got two hundred
results. Only one name popped out at me. I had been to Holy Cross before
to sign my daughter up for cheerleading, so I knew where it was. I saw
that it had a link to a website, so I checked it out.
Who knew
you could have fun at church? I didn’t. All the pictures of people
laughing and enjoying themselves made me want to bring my family to this
church. It was the only link I clicked on and now I know that God was
truly leading us there.
My
daughter and I went first. During the service, when I was having some
trouble following the liturgy, there was a lady who came out of the choir
to help me find my place. I thought that was so kind, for her to stop just
to help me. I knew then that we had found a home.
Soon
after, Pastor John asked us to attend Alpha,
and we did. It was life-changing for us. It inspired us in a way we’d
never experienced before to recommit our lives to God . It also allowed us
to get acquainted with our new church family.
Once we
finished Alpha, and later joined
the church, I made the ridiculous assumption that life would be carefree
and no trouble or hard times would ever darken our door. Boy, was I wrong.
In the
next year, we would go through the hardest times of our lives. Illness,
bankruptcy, job layoffs, and a custody fight. Finally, in the darkest
days, a separation of our family -- all while trying to raise three
children, two of whom were teenagers.
But the
Lord knew what we would go through, and what we would need to go through
it, which is why He lead us to Holy Cross. Our church family helps us so
much, even when they aren’t aware of it.
Psalm
34:18 says, "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those
who are crushed in spirit." I have learned how true that is in my own
life. Sometimes lessons are hard to learn, but His grace is always
sufficient.
Our lives
have taken a very different course than the one they were on before. We
have been blessed more than we ever thought possible. I know that whatever
happens, we can face it with a confidence that can only come from knowing
that our Heavenly Father is in control. Sometimes it overwhelms me; my cup
runneth over indeed.